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February 28, 2007

Filed under: Uncategorized — ashlieaxandike @ 9:56 pm

and I LOVE this one:



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This is C:


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Here are a couple more pics of S. that rash got pretty scary for me(ex. his cheeks are not flushed, that is jst connected rash dots.) but it’a all gone now. Yay!!!


Stuff I need

Filed under: Uncategorized — ashlieaxandike @ 1:11 pm

I’m just putting this out here-if any of you want to help me out, this is stuff I’m going to be needing pretty soon:

boy toys. Ax is 5, so maybe older toys, like action figures, etc. but really, he just needs his own toys, so any boys toys.

A High chair or booster. Something for C to sit in contained for me to feed him/help him eat.

A booster car seat

a couple blankets for Ax. I don’t want to make S give Ax a whole ton of stuff(cause that would be hard for him) and I don’t want Ax to feel like everything he has is just hand-me-downs from S.

3 dressers. That is a long shot. Maybe someone knows where to buy dressers for cheap or will see one at DI I can go get.

Garage sales this summer are going to be my best friend. 🙂


February 27, 2007

Filed under: Uncategorized — ashlieaxandike @ 9:59 pm

Today I had all three boys all day. I went and picked them up at 8am. I completly forgot about preschool for S till lunchtime, and it was over by then. I’ll have to try and remember on thursday-it is good for his life to be as normal as possible. They have played pretty good today. I was able to buy a toy for S and Ax so they each had their own. I am struggling with sleep though. Naptimes aren’t happening. HOpefully as everyone gets used to living here it will get better. Bedtime tonight was interesting. S is not used to having other people in the room with him, Ax is used to falling asleep watching cartoon network(which is not happening here) and C…well, I don’t know how to get him to sleep. After struggling with C for a long time I ended up just putting up the playpen in my room and letting him cry it out there. I feel bad doing that, but I don’t know what else to do. In my arms he just crys anyway, but doesn’t falls asleep. Ax cried for a little bit for me to sleep with him, that he couldn’t sleep alone, but he fell asleep pretty quick, and S is still awake in there. lol. He can take forever to fall asleep sometimes. Maybe in an hour, or once I know S is completly asleep I will try and move C into his crib and just hope and pray he stays asleep.

I’m so exhausted. I know this will get easier. We will get into a routine. I WILL figure out sleep for them. I will get everything more organized and won’t have to be working so hard at getting it organized like I am now. It won’t be so bad then, but for now I think I am drowning! A Wise friend said this today: “…I had committed to do some things – all of which were parts of great opportunities… But when it came time for me to deliver on those committments I had lost sight of the opportunity and was wallowing in the “have to’s.” I have to do this, I have to do this…I don’t have enough time!

Not enough time is also a story – there are only 24 hours in a day and it is enough time.

So I have put a red flag up when I feel constrained and overwhelmed – a red flag to remind me to STOP stop and focus on the opportunity that brought me to committing in the first place!”

I love that. i just have to make this work minute by minute, day by day and remember what the opportunity was that lead me here. I need to remember what I am doing for these kids. I am getting a little more done each day, but it’s just so hard for me to not be able to do everything i need to quickly.


February 26, 2007

Filed under: Uncategorized — ashlieaxandike @ 9:34 pm

3 kids are exhausting! We had them all day sunday and today and they have been going back and sleeping at the aunts house. Tomorrow we will have them all day+sleepover. We are getting a bunkbed set up tomorrow. They are really good kids and so cute. I’m loving them already. And, yeah, it will be super hard if they do end up going back to their family, but it’s their mom. I am happy to be helping out and showing them what a normal(me? normal?) family, a stable family can be like. We do hope for adoption, but we know that there is always a chance that they will go back home.

I’m really overwhelmed right now. It just is so much planning and so much I need to think about(like getting a bed and toys and getting my baby stuff out yet, how do I get them all to sleep in the same room, etc) but I’m just taking it one day at a time. I’m trying to not even think about the big picture of how much I need to do right now and just do one thing, then the next.

Anyway. They are great. They both have a few issues, but they all will. There are reasons these kids are in foster care, you know.