I used to know a good little man. He was the best. He always (well, mostly always) obeyed. He wanted so bad to please me, and I tried to make it pretty easy for him. We got along quite well and had lots of fun together. He always welcomed my hugs and kisses and cuddles. He rarely screamed at me, and I rarely screamed at him. I miss him so much. I don’t know how to get him back and I almost regret the decision I made that has made him disappear. I hope in the deepest part of my heart that he isn’t gone forever. I miss him so bad. I need him back. I actually have no ideas on how to make that happen though. It probably was inevitable that this day would come, but I’m really having a difficult time with it.
March 5, 2007