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Confession of the day: March 28, 2007

Filed under: Uncategorized — ashlieaxandike @ 10:53 pm

I have issues.

NO, really, I have issues.

Every day that passes I find myself becoming more and more OCD. I hate money. Metal. Keys. Yuck. More than Yuck-I can’t handle the grossness I feel, the smell that won’t wash off my hands. ‘A’ consistently questions my reasoning here and never even comes close to understanding there is NO REASONING at all. All metal is repulsive. disgusting. I was willing to pay the $60.00 for a copy of my last cars key so the key could have that plastic topper on it(alas, they couldn’t make me one).

I have an obbession with organizing. planning. over-thinking. Everything has to have a plan. a purpose. a known outcome. I have trouble being spontaneous anymore. (which is frustating to everyone, including me) I just spent the last 2 hours. 2 HOURS! picking out 8 pictures to print out for frames in my house. This might seem like a large task, but it shouldn’t have taken that long. The goal was to get some pics of my new boys(and some updated of S) up on the walls, so it wasn’t like I was digging through years of pictures to find these 8 pictures. There was probably a max of 80 I was looking through. Obsessing over.

Once I decided that S’s diapers were no good and I wanted to try and find a different, a better brand to use. Now if I was a normal person I would probably just go to the store and pick out another brand and use them to see if I thought they were better(I’m guessing. I’m not actually sure what normal people do…) I, on the other hand, am borderline OCD, so to try and find a new brand of diapers that I like was quite an ordeal. I went to the store and obsessed over the different brands. Finally decided there was NO WAY I could make such an intricate decision soley on the cartoon sponser on each diaper. So I bought a smallish pack of many different brands and proceeded to preform an experiment on my poor 6 months old. I had a notebook and I kept track of each and every diaper we changed. Did it leak? Was the leakage pee or poo? Did it not leak? Was the diaper holding pee or poo? At the end of my lengthy experiment I compared the diaper brands based on the information I had collected and TA DA! I found a great diaper. (We won’t talk about how 2 different brands actually tied and I ended up choosing the winner based on it’s cartoon branding) The point here is, I actually don’t understand how one could NOT need to obsess over decisions like this. How can you just walk into a store and choose something off the shelf without looking at every single option. I’m actually amazed by those kind of people. It’s just to foreign to me.

summary: I’m crazy. Someone help me.


6 Responses to “Confession of the day:”

  1. Aprill Says:

    Crazy would be picking the diaper because of the cartoon and being unwilling to change. OCD would be changing the diaper 23 times/day whether he needs it or not. You would need help if you refused to use the key just because it was metal and just stayed home cowering in your room.

    You’re ok. 🙂

  2. Camille Says:

    Welcome to my exclusive club! It’s nice to not be so alone any more! LOL

  3. Mom Says:

    ….Like daughter!!! How sad 🙂 I didn’t think ocd was hereditary. I can relate—which toilet paper should I buy–the regular roll, the large roll, the giant roll, the 4 pack, the 8 pack, the 12 pack, single ply, double ply, and don’t forget about the price of it all. Whew I wish I could just shut my eyes and pick one but that would throw me into an aniety attack. Now you understand why I’ve never been able to tolerate a messy house. Icannot stand things being out of place for very long. Thankfully it’s not a full blown ocd–just borderline. So get things undercontrol now and you’ll be ok. Love you—Mom

  4. Tonya Says:

    I love you, Ashlee! You’re not crazy!! but I do have a solution for you, Landmark Education, ever heard of it? hehe! I am serious though, this will be a great thing for you. If it wasn’t, I don’t think our friend would offer to pay a little bit on it.
    Keep smiling!

  5. Lacie Says:

    So what brand did you finally decide on???

  6. Kim Says:

    ROFLMBO! Oh Ashlee, I am kind of with Lacie, wondering which brand you finally bought! LOL! Seriously though, I have issues with metal too, weird I know…and I HAVE to buy the same diapers, I have tried to switch but I too get all tight chested…it was a huge decision, and well, I could go into it, but it is hard for me to even buy the ones I do…PRICE I spend A LOT, but I would spend more for another kind if I didn’t feel so much guilt! I feel you are absoulutely normal, and thank you for your post because now I feel a bit more normal myself!

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